I am a single Mom that has a disabled daughter that currently lives with me and our four dogs. I also own a horse.
I couldn't have made it for the last 3 years without the support of my family and friends.
Well I finally did it. Bought a different house and moved. I can not express the joy I feel and the weight of the memories that are not with me dragging me down every day. This house is a dream come true for me. Now if I can just get the boxes unpacked - the stuff sorted for a garage sale and the other stuff put up. If will be a process that will take me some time. It took me 25 years to get all this stuff so I'm not expecting me to go through it all quickly. Some of the stuff was my dad's and grandparents. Those take more time as it does bring memories of loved ones who are no longer with us.
I have come across things that I haven't seen it years. It's almost like Christmas.
My daughter is having a hard time adjusting to the fact that I have moved on. She has it in her mind that some how she has received a settlement and that
is how I bought my house. Even though she is told over and over again that there is no settlement by not only myself and other family members she still tells people this lie. Since her surgery we can not figure out how her mind works. She feels that if she thinks it - then it is true. She seems to have no remorse for her actions and will deny anything she does. I could go on and on about her, but I won't.
Let's hope that I can get my boxes unpacked in a timely fashion! :)
Well I realized the other day that I have been basically running from my life - not wanting to except the things that have not gone right in my life and some of these things are things I can not change. My life is the way God has it planned for me. Maybe not what I had hoped for, but it is "My Life Such As It Is".
When I take a moment and look around this world, all of us have dreams shattered and hopes dashed, so I comfort in knowing that I'm not alone.
I'm blessed that I have friends in my life that have loved me enough to let me rant and rave, cry and sometimes scream when I felt at my lowest and though they may not see it yet. They have been the difference between me being here at home or in the nuthouse.
So a big huge thanks to those friends and on to living "My Life Such As It Is!"
Well it's already a new year and I haven't posted in ages. It's been a very busy end of 2011 and the first 19 days of 2012. I'll be happy when my job slows down. Most days my faithful companion comes to work with me. I would not trade for Thor. He has been a blessing to me.