New Home

Well I finally did it. Bought a different house and moved. I can not express the joy I feel and the weight of the memories that are not with me dragging me down every day. This house is a dream come true for me. Now if I can just get the boxes unpacked - the stuff sorted for a garage sale and the other stuff put up. If will be a process that will take me some time. It took me 25 years to get all this stuff so I'm not expecting me to go through it all quickly. Some of the stuff was my dad's and grandparents. Those take more time as it does bring memories of loved ones who are no longer with us. I have come across things that I haven't seen it years. It's almost like Christmas. My daughter is having a hard time adjusting to the fact that I have moved on. She has it in her mind that some how she has received a settlement and that is how I bought my house. Even though she is told over and over again that there is no settlement by not only myself and other family members she still tells people this lie. Since her surgery we can not figure out how her mind works. She feels that if she thinks it - then it is true. She seems to have no remorse for her actions and will deny anything she does. I could go on and on about her, but I won't. Let's hope that I can get my boxes unpacked in a timely fashion! :)

My Life Today

Well I realized the other day that I have been basically running from my life - not wanting to except the things that have not gone right in my life and some of these things are things I can not change. My life is the way God has it planned for me. Maybe not what I had hoped for, but it is "My Life Such As It Is".

When I take a moment and look around this world, all of us have dreams shattered and hopes dashed, so I comfort in knowing that I'm not alone.

I'm blessed that I have friends in my life that have loved me enough to let me rant and rave, cry and sometimes scream when I felt at my lowest and though they may not see it yet. They have been the difference between me being here at home or in the nuthouse.

So a big huge thanks to those friends and on to living "My Life Such As It Is!"

2012

Well it's already a new year and I haven't posted in ages. It's been a very busy end of 2011 and the first 19 days of 2012. I'll be happy when my job slows down. Most days my faithful companion comes to work with me. I would not trade for Thor. He has been a blessing to me.

Hope everyday is a blessed day!

Soul Searching

Over the last couple of weeks I've had a lot of time to do some soul searching. I've come to realize that you may love some one with all your heart but sometimes that person isn't the same person they were when you fell in love with them and it's time to let it go. Always easier said then done - but I'm going to try and get it done.

I've also realized that sometimes you just can not make yourself give a crap. But that too I plan on working on - I believe that's called attitude. :)

Life is what it is and you can either accept it and deal with the lemons or you can let it take you down the dark wholes. I've had my share of dark wholes and I'm going to try and not get back in them.

Sometimes trying to get your 84 yr old mother to understand what your feeling doesn't work - and she has never really agreed with much that I've done any way so once again I'll do what I think is best for me.

Luckily I have great friends that do understand where I'm coming from.

Paper Cow Gril Retreat

Prissy and I are attending Paper Cowgirl Retreat in June and can not wait. The picture above is one of the classes we will be taking. I've never made any type of jewelry and this is so stinkin' cute that I can't wait to make it.

So until June 9th rolls around I'll be dreaming of crafting at the Paper Cowgirl Retreat.

Sickness/Friends

Well I've been sick the last couple of days with strep throat. I hate when I get this as it really knocks me down. But wanted to say how very blessed I am to have friends like, Prissy, Amber, Allison and Freddie who were brave enough to bring me things to eat and Allison the bravest of them all - to drive me to the doctor. Please pray that none of these very caring friends get sick from me. They are truly great people.

Had a fast trip to the Texas Motor Speedway for the races this weekend. My man - Matt Kenseth won the race so it was great for me. Got home yesterday evening and I have to admit I am draggin today but I'll get thru this Monday one way or another.